Bonjour!

Haii there.

I’m back! Long time no see ;)

I wait

For your call, your text. Hoping it will happen but I lose faith and I hit end up hitting that send button or the call button. I don’t want to lose you. I’m weak.

Blame

Is always on me, I’m starting to get use to it. But who knows how much longer I can put up with it. Goodnight.

In my household

I’m treated wrong, far from being treated like a family member. And the bad thing about it, they don’t even realize. The only time I’m truly happy is when I’m with patrick or in my dreams. Patrick makes me feel like I’m actually worth something to him, he makes me feel alive. He’s the only reason I’m alive right now. No one will ever understand. I’m trapped. Help me, someone.

My life

Really really sucks. I hate people.

Tonight

Was different. Hanging out with people I don’t often do, was defenatley what I needed. Life is coming back together so slowly, I have to be patient. Goodnight <3 :)

It’s going to be a rough night

With all of my thoughts running in and out of my head, and no one I’m quite comfortable speaking anything with. I have no faith, in anything or anyone anymore. I’ve been let down by most of the people I care for. All I have is music to drain my thoughts and tears to put me to sleep. I’ve been put down on my appearance, promises and judged on how I felt and worst of all got left behind by the most important person that WAS in my life. I pretend that everything is alright when I’m at school and then when I’m home, I’m. A. Wreck. I would love to trade places with someone in heaven than to be here, they would appreciate life much more than I do. Well that’s that. Night.

I’m back!

I’m going to be a tumblr maniac now, posting things all the time and what not! Well bonne nuit mon amours <3